stephxrogers:

_{( ☆ ) ——- [ she knew that the other 
                    would face a probability
                    of death once more. the 
                    thought of it was enough 
                    to ideally make captain 
                    america protective over
                    bucky, and she does 
                    what she is accustomed 
                    to. and it’s to defend. ]} 

          _{“ I swear, if y - you’re going to do something… —- - n - no, I… I believe you. 
 This isn’t you. The Winter Soldier… —- - and it’s me, yes. Rogers. Steph. 
 Zola had enough time to completely erase everything you’ve remembered. 
 Wiped out your memories. Even the ones with me. “} 

                                                                                        _{[ steph continues to soothe out                          
                                                                                           the rough edges of the pain
                                                                                           which caused bucky from the
                                                                                           price of being brainwashed.
                                                                                           she pushes back as much
                                                                                           brunette locks as she can,
                                                                                           seeing that expression that
                                                                                           bucky has almost never
                                                                                           shown to anyone else.  ]} 

_{—- - ” You and… Agent Romanoff. Bucky —- - I’m your best friend. I won’t leave you. I told you —- - starting right now, I won’t leave.
                                                                  { Not without you. }
       We’re soldiers. We’ve got our fair share of innocent blood on our hands. 
                When we joined the army, we knew this was happen —- - deaths of civilians. 
  The thing is, you didn’t kill people —- - they controlled you to.
                 They programmed you to. You’re human, Bucky. You’re not their toy. ”}

_{[ it was pure ambivalence which caught
  the woman’s heart into the sentiments 
that one may usually have. such as 
  the love one may share to another.
  but right now, stephanie just wanted 
  him to settle down something more 
  comfortable. and somehow in denial, 
  steph’s voice slightly shook in tone. 
  and it mirrored bucky’s own. ]}

                                              _{“ I - I can’t —- 
                                                      —- not until S.H.I.E.L.D. gets their answers, Bucky. 
                                                                 Please. P - Please, don’t give into 
                                                                      false memories and accusations. 
                                                    I’m —- … I’m too afraid to let you out. “} 

          [ it was going to plan. it was
          going a lot easier than what
          he’d expected it to. that was
          the upside of having someone
          that was considered such a
          weak comaptriate. stephanie
          was weak, weaker than 90% of
          the students that he had taught
          back in the red room. it was just
          far too easy to get her away from
          this ]

                “… No. I just.. I’m so sorry, Steph.
                            I shouldn’t… I shouldn’t have agreed to go with Zola.
                                      He gave me a way out, and I wanted to take it “

          [ bucky doesn’t look up. he doesn’t
          want to look up. it brings back far
          too harsh memories. steph was the
          memory of a good life, the memory
          of a life before the red room. he
          darts his eyes up quick enough to
          take in her face before sighing quietly.
          this wasn’t right. it shouldn’t have been ]

        “I should’ve told you when I first come in. I trained her… You did.
                               You didn’t look for me.
                                         { You didn’t care }
          It was my job, and I just had to do it.
                                They.. I killed people that didn’t know anything.
                        I just utterly tore them apart. Howard and Maria. That was me.”

          [ That night was the worse. howard
          had picked up it was him. knew
          those eyes when he plunged the
          knife into their throats. the plane
         was blown up, and it was all his
          own work. he’s beyond guilty
          about it. shaking his head slightly,
           bucky bit back a laugh and
          grabbed at the bars ]

                      “Please. Steph, they’re going to kill me if you don’t.
                              I’m a terrorist. They’re going to want me dead. Please”